listening to: The Spill Canvas
mood: content
Yeah, yeah, yeah(s).

I know, it's been forever. And when you go forever without an update, an awful lot changes. I'm not getting into it because it's really just ridiculous. The brief version is that I'm home again. I love it here and I wouldn't change a think I've done up until this point. Things are fairly decent.
I have a wonderful job working with kiddies. We play and color mostly every day. It gets extremely stressful sometimes, but the kids are generally fun and easy to be around. Plus, they talk funny and it makes me laugh. I could, however, do without the diapers.
I recently fell in love with the 'Twilight' series. Edward Cullen makes me happy. Due to reading the books, I've really begun to write regularly. Something about those books made me desperately want one of my own. We'll see. So far the parts I've shared were enjoyed.
I'm going to VA for a few days. I can't wait. I definitely need a break from my life. Yes, it's good, but a break is always welcome.
Hmm...I have nothing else of significance to write at this moment. I'm going to sleep momentarily. I'm exhausted.

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listening to: Butch Walker 'Race Cars and Goth Rock'
mood: happy
Eeeeeee!! Only two more days until I move back to Jersey! Yay!

Last night while I was laying on the couch, though, I did get a little sad. If you asked me six months ago how I pictured my life at this time, I would have never even come close to this. Not that I'm not happy, but just surprised. I'm going to miss some of my friends so much. They were there for me; we had fun. Then there are some people who I hardly recognize anymore. Maybe I cut myself off from them, but whatever the case is, I can't even be in a room with them for more than 2 hours before I feel lost and uncomfortable. It's sad.
Okay, so I decided that I was going to watch 'Moment Of Truth' last night and I was terribly disappointed. I mean, it had a great concept, but the contestents already knew the questions they were going to be asked because they were already asked them. Then the computer that generated whether the answers were true or false took FOREVER!!! 'That answer is...........................................................................................................................................................................................................true!' There is NO need for anything to take that long. Especially on questions that are so silly. 'When you get out of the shower, do you check yourself out in the mirror?' Well, who the fuck doesn't? There is no need for fake suspense on a question like that. In an hour, I don't think more than 20 questions were asked.
And why is Heath Ledger's death the only thing on the news? Cuz there are several more important things going on...suicide bombers, the election, etc. I feel bad for his family, but enough is enough. Other things are happening in the world.
Okay, I'm going to get some work done now. I shall update again soon.

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listening to: Bent by Matt Nathanson
mood: excited
It's been too damn long...

People who read this probably think I'm losing my mind, and I'd agree with them. So, what's happened since October 23rd?
Well, for about two years now I've been stalking my ex-boyfriend on Myspace. Yes, at least once a week I would check his page to see what was going on his life. Don't flip out, I know you do it, too. Well, right around the end of October I noticed that he was single again, as he'd been dating/moved in with this girl for a while. So, I decided to send him a message. Now, some of you all might think this is crazy, but I knew him pretty well and if he didn't want to talk to me, he would just ignore it. He had been ignoring me for two years at this point, so I figured what's the harm? Well, we ended up messaging back and forth for a while and one Friday I gave him my number and he called me and the rest is history.
All the old feelings came back. We hung out a few times and we both knew that we needed to give this another chance. We both grew up. We were both put in situations to show us just how we were to each other. It was amazing. I knew we could always be friends. We loved the same music and enjoyed doing the same things. I always wanted a friendship. The thing is, though, is that we have passion. Insane and wild passion for each other. It's crazy.
So, skip to the present moment. I have only 14 days left in Maryland. Yup, I know I just moved here, but we both know. I've never been in a situation where I just know. And this time, I know. I'm moving in with him at the end of the month. I know it's right. We know it's right.
I know I hurt her. I feel guilty for it, but come on, it was due. Overdue even. One day good, the next day we weren't speaking. It hasn't been healthy since the day it started. We became friends and nothing more. I'm not sure if we were even really friends. I sometimes think we were both just lonely and needed someone to take up our time.
I'm happy. I know I overreact sometimes, but he puts up with it and calms me down. I'm so excited. I'm ready to begin my life now. The next part. The fun part. I get to be with the one I love and spend time with our fabulous friends. It's going to be amazing. My life is like a movie. Not too many people get their first loves back. I do, though, and we're gonna make it work. We will make the world jealous. We will prove them all wrong. We just need to make it through the next two weeks apart.

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listening to: Hanson 'Been There Before'
Hello! It has been a while, my apologies. I'm currently at work, with plenty to do, but my lack of desire is preventing me from getting anywhere. Instead, I feel an update is due (well, overdue).
First, my apartment is pretty much complete. I have furniture and everything! This might not sound exciting, however, I have not had a dining room or living room set since I moved in. My mother, so graciously, donated a living room set to my cause, and my grandmother gave me my great-grandmother's dining room set. It looks fabulous. Now I might even want to have people over. I'll have a place for them to sit! I'm even thinking about having a little party at my place with a few of my friends in mid November. Yay!
My job isn't terrible. The hours are a little overwhelming at times, but I do love the people. The business practices aren't fabulous and the amount of sexual harassment that occurs here in an hour is unbelievable, but I really do believe I've made some decent friends. At the very least, I'll be prepared when I need a mortgage.
I'm not sure too much else is going on. I had dinner with Tracy last night, which was fabulous. This weekend Jacquie is coming down. I haven't seen her since before I graduated, so I'm excited for that. We're all going to see Saw IV! Wooo! It'll be just like old times. I'm really looking foward to it.
Oh yeah, I almost died this weekend (exaggerated). I had some intense strep, though, with a great fever to accompany it. At least it was a good excuse to lay in bed and sleep for most of the weekend. It was much needed.
That's it! I'm going to get some work done now.

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